Wednesday, August 29, 2007
The feelings of humans are universal. What you feel inside yourself – all the hurt, pain, anger, jealousy, depression, disappointment, melancholy – when you are in a failing relationship, is exactly the same as that experienced by someone else who has been in your shoes and goes through what you have gone through right now. When my relationship failed, I wanted to bring back my lover, as I felt deep in my heart that we should be together. But I did not know what went wrong and why things happened the way they did! Labels: Musim Gugur
Years ago, the love of my life was involved in an extramarital affair, and he wanted a separation. So I had been ‘there’, gone through ‘it’, and lived through what I would call "a living hell".
I was full of anguish and disbelief when it happened. I couldn't believe my eyes and my ears. I must admit; I had been a good girlfriend to him for years; giving him the greatest care and love I could give. In fact, I almost gave him my everything!
The heartache and pain I went through could literally tear me apart!
So here's another day and another morning...
with what I should do with it...
hum...
So should I mop around and be pissed off at everyone or should I just thank God for everything He's given me...
Maybe I'm always wanting more and never appreciating what I have now..
Well here's to another day that I'm alive...
I learned a good thing today...
I learned that sometimes we don't like to eat veggies and healthy foods but its good for us. Sometimes we get to eat fruits and snacks which are also good for us...
Overall its a balanced diet. And that's how our day is.
Sometimes God gives us things in our life that we don't like but He knows its the best for us because He's got it all planned out.
I learned from that little devotion that God has it under control...
good and bad...
Hahaha...
like my depressing poem...
and for you who are reading it...
No I'm not going to commit sucide...
I'm just wanted to write some really cold empty words to my page...because I hate my self and my life.
But here's another poem...
that explains a bit about who I am...
Its so cold inside my hands have turned to ice my heart to stone
I'm crying but no one notices
I scream out my whispers of agony within me but no hear's no one cares
God I've lost my way and every time I try to get up I find my self in the same pit of despair again and again
I'm so tired of trying to dream up my life
I'm so tired of trying to try
I'm so tired of crying inside about my family and my sins that tear down any kind of hope I had I can't bear to fail anymore
God I'm so silent before you If you can hear my heart please come and save me because every time I get up I fall and fall
God open my eyes to the hands of love that have been scarred by my sins
God forgive me for my stubborness and lack of faith in You
Lift me up into Your arms which have never pushed me away once
If I Should
If I were to die would you notice me
If I were to die would you realize what you lost
If I were to die my miserable existence would finally come to an end
If I were to die would you be happy that I'm no longer a burden to you
By: Yunaz
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